Saturday, March 28, 2009

My favourite quotes from my favourite books/authors..

"Welcome to the wonderful world of jealousy, he thought. For the price of admission, you get a splitting headache, a nearly irresistable urge to commit murder, and an inferority complex. Yippee." JR Ward

"There comes a point when you either embrace who and what you are, or condemn yourself to be miserable all your days. Other people will try to make you miserable; don't help them by doing the job yourself." - Laura K Hamillton


Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent." — Eleanor Roosevelt

"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend." — Albert Camus


"I find television very educating. Every time somebody turns on the set, I go into the other room and read a book." — Groucho Marx


"Even if i were lying on the sun itself, i would be freezing there without you." — Sherrilyn Kenyon

"He is like a drug to you, Bella." His voice was still gentle, not at all critical. "I see that you can't live without him now. It's too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun." The corner of my mouth turned up in a wistful half smile. "I used to think of you that way, you know. Like the sun. My personal sun. You balanced out the clouds nicely for me." He Sighed. "The clouds I can handle. But I can't fight with an eclipse." — Stephenie Meyer (Eclipse)


"If I could dream at all it would be about you. And I'm not ashamed of it." — Stephenie Meyer (Twilight)


"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." — Dr. Seuss



"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." — Dr. Seuss



"I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came...and I was awakened." — J.R. Ward (Lover Awakened)



"Some books should be tasted some devoured, but only a few should be chewed and digested thoroughly." — Cornelia Funke (Inkheart)

"So what you're saying is, I'm your brand of heroin?" "You're exactly my brand of heroin." — Stephenie Meyer (Twilight)


"Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love." — Mother Teresa



"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." — Marianne Williamson (A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of a Course in Miracles)




Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you. I'd been broken beyond repair." — Stephenie Meyer (New Moon)

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb...," He murmured. "What a stupid lamb, " I sighed. "What a sick, masochistic lion." — Stephenie Meyer (Twiligt


"The content of fear may be intense & gripping so much that it overwhelms us completely. But when we look beyond that content at the fear itself, what do we find? Pure energy, energy which if we focus on directly will begin to reveal it's true nature. Then instead of filling us with agitation, the energy of fear can actually lead us to a state of exhilaration or intense concentration or love. " — Ancient Hindu Scripture
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Sunday, March 22, 2009

You were my everything

This goes out to someone that was once the most important person in my life.
I didn’t realize it at the time I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so I don’t really expect you to either It’s just... I don’t even know Just listen…
You’re the one that I want, the one that I need The one that I gotta have just to succeed.
When I first saw you, I knew it was real I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel.
That wasn’t me; let me show you the way.
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today.
I remember when I first looked into your eyes It was like God was there, heaven in the skies.
wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt But I didn’t know I made everything worse You told me we were crazy in love But you didn’t care when push came to shove
If you loved me as much as you said you did Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me I loved you with my heart, really and truly
I guess you forgot about the times that we shared When I would run my fingers through your hair Late nights, just holding you in my arms I don’t know how I could do you so wrong
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you I really wanna know you like no one else could know you You’re number one, always in my heart And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart
I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you ‘cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you You were my everything And I really miss you
I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand The thought of that just shatters my heart It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
At times we was off I was scared to show you Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you Without you, everything seems strange Your name is forever planted in my brain
Damn it, I’m insane, Take away the pain Take away the hurt Baby, we can make it work
What about when you Looked into my eyes Told me you loved me As you would hugged me
I guess everything you said was a lie I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes Now I’m not even a thought in your mind I can see clearly, my love is not blind
I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you ‘cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you You were my everything And I really miss you
I just wish everything could have turned out differently I had a special feeling about you I thought maybe you did too You would understand, but… No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart You’ll always be my baby
Our first day, it seemed so magical I remember all the time that I had with you Remember when you first came to my house? You looked like an angel wearing that blouse
We hit it off, I knew it was real But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times? Remember when we kissed? I didn’t think you would ever do me like this I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess
You said you were my best friend, was that a lie? Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying
I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you ‘cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you You were my everything And I really miss you
And I do miss you I just thought we were meant to be I guess now, we’ll never know The only thing I want is for you to be happy Whether it be with me, or without me I just want you to be happy
-Aviation

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Answers from my 6 yr old

B-J - 6 yrs old
Copy this note, ask your kid the questions and write them down exactly how they respond. Tag me back if you haven't done this, I'd love to hear the answers.


1. What is something mom always says to you?
"Pack away your playstation"
2. What makes mom happy?
"My family"
3. What makes mom sad?
"When I live my toys laying around"
4. How does your mom make you laugh?
"She tells me jokes"
5. What was your mom like as a child?
"She was a cute kid"
"6. How old is your mom?
"Twenty"
7. How tall is your mom?
"not really tall"
8. What is her favorite thing to do?
"Go to nanna's."
9. What does your mom do when you're not around?
" goes to work"
10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
"*giggles* You will be on a star wars movie mum"
11. What is your mom really good at?
"Doing her jobs and getting things off the roof - Remember mum when you saved my aeroplane off the roof?"
12. What is your mom not very good at?
"Sweeping the leaves off the roof" (???LOL Never knew i should lol)
13. What does your mom do for her job?
"she makes money and sells stuff." (Im a console operator)
14. What is your mom's favorite food?
"Pork."
15. What makes you proud of your mom?
"If I do my jobs and my homework. AND AND If I read alot"
16. If your mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
"Squidward." (OMG LOL From spongebob)
17. What do you and your mom do together?
"We go on dates to the movies and stuff. And we shop and look after dad"
18. How are you and your mom the same?
"Were both getting old?"( LOL)
19. How are you and your mom different?
"Your heaps older mum."
20. How do you know your mom loves you?
"She just does. I just know"
21. Where is your mom's favorite place to go?
"SHOPPING!!!" (LOL yep)

Monday, March 16, 2009

A good boss recognizes everything you do, a bad boss only notices the mistakes.

I love my job - for the most part.

I work in customer service and have been in my current position for over 3 years now. I work ALL weekend EVERY weekend as well as 2-3 days during the week.

I've always worked weekends...well as long as I've been here I've been working weekends.I dislike it Immensly, it not only affects my social life it most importantly affects my family life.
I'm off 2-3 days during the week those days ALWAYS being weekdays - Either a Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday.
My son is 6 and in the 1st grade. On my days off I drop him at school and run errands all day. On his days off I'm at work. It feels like we never get the chance to do anything fun together.

I hate working weekends, but I do it, I don't complain.
I've asked for a change on several seperate occasions, my boss always assures me he will "see what he can do" - Which obviously is jack shit all.

There are currently 3 people who work at my work, My boss, Myself and My mum happens to be the other employee (which is great). She works 7 days a week, 9hr+ days. She was the reason I started my Job, I just wanted to help out and give her some time off - It never happened. Instead my boss decided he would use the extra help to his advantage and take more time off.

The other day he mentioned we will be adding to our staff, a new female employee. I was excited and happy at 1st, thinking maybe finally we could share our workload with someone and things around there would flow smoother...I could spend more time with my mum and my family.

EHHHH, WRONG!!! The new addition happens to have another job, 3 kids, a husband and a house so naturally she gets to choose the days/hours that are suitable to her so she can work - so the boss can stop work ALTOGETHER!!

What a load of horse shit!!!
I've been there 3 years, my mum way longer then that. Between my mum and I we do SOOOO much around here he barely has to lift a finger and this is the gratitude we get. Nice.

My notice is written out, which really is a shame because I love my customers. 80% of them are regulars and ive come to know them all so well! These customers all say the only reason they come is because of my mum and I.

I've already been offered a few other jobs so lining up work will not be an issue. I just hope that he re-thinks his decisions.