playing on the ipod.....

Can't be friends - Trey songs
Right thru me - Nicki Minaj
There goes my baby - Usher
When a woman loves - R kelly
Your love - Nicki Minaj
Check it out - Will.I.Am & Nicki Minaj

Endure to the end....

Life constantly throws us curve balls. It's how we catch them and throw them back that counts yeah?

2 days ago we decided on accepting the job offers and moving back to Sydney....It's bittersweet.

I am really excited to be around my family more. Esp my bff Renea and my sisters...and my mum. Life has been lonely without them. I miss Renea and our craziness when we are together. I miss my sisters...My older sister bossing me around, me bossing my younger sisters around. I miss taking the piss out of my mum - there is truly never a dull moment whilst i'm with her. I miss my Nieces and my nephews and all my inlaws.

But leaving Melbourne is bittersweet... My family here have opened my eyes to so many things. Because of them I laugh louder.... I love deeper...I have become stronger. My cousin Linda has been my rock. She is one of the most amazing persons i'm lucky enough to have in my life. She has become one of my closest friends and I am going to miss her most of all.

When we 1st moved to Melbourne I was very sick...My memory was weak, my mind was scattered. In some sense it has been a journey of self discovery for me. I've always been independent but Melbourne fully detached me from my comfort zone and I learnt to be strong. I focused more on my family life, health and faith and wow...... its been life changing. My marriage is PERFECT! My husband is amazing, my son is the personification of Miracle.

IT's going to be so hard to drive away from here....from whats been home for the last 9 months.

But i'm not leaving empty handed... With me im taking the life lessons that I have learnt.

Being here, I've also had time to reflect on the past. I've had time to heal. I have always been a firm believer in "NO REGRETS" ...still am. But I have acknowledged the many mistakes i've made and boy have I made a few! I can honestly say that I am so content with life now....everyday is a blessing.

I guess this has just turned into a ramble....as alot of my blogs tend to lol.

until next time...xx

Worried about giving B-J a sibling

And I begin to realize that I haven’t taken something from you, I’ve given something to you.I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you – only differently. ♥

Quoted....

If you want to know what a man's like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals

11 weeks and counting

SO I'm 11 weeks and 4 days pregnant today (according to my 1st ultrasound) But I'm already feeling flutter movement. I don't remember feeling movement with B-J until I was about 16 wks-ish. I think its too early but it was definitely movement! Maybe my dates are messed up? My 1st Antenatal appointment is tomorrow maybe I can speak to my midwife I have another Ultrasound next week anyway so we can double check then. Its so sweet though - I forgot what it felt like. I didn't think I would be blessed enough to feel this again.

The sookie stackhouse series by charlaine harris

I read this series (up to book 9) last year and thought before I start reading book *10 I'd write my review. I was a little worried about reading them because I jumped the gun and started watching the TV series, Tru Blood, which is based on the books. But I loved each and every book. I read the whole 9 books in 1 week! I adore Sookie's character, she is a down to earth girl who doesn't scare or take crap easily - oh with special abilities. She is torn between 2 lovers, has the strangest company for friends - not to mention family. Charlaine Harris is pure genius and this series just fuels my vampire addiction.

It makes me mad!

It really makes me mad to see some girls pregnant when they cant even look after then child/ren they already have. Especially when some of these girls don't even have the other kids in there care? Are you fucking kidding me? Girls its called birth control...put a cork in it! I feel so sorry for these children and the lifestyle they are being brought into.