New artists...

Adele - Someone like you.

I heard this on the radio this morning, her voice is beautiful <3



I heard that you're settled down,


That you found a girl and you're married now,

I heard that your dreams came true,

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,

Old friend, why are you so shy?

Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,



I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,



Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,



You know how the time flies,

Only yesterday was the time of our lives,

We were born and raised in a summer haze,

Bound by the surprise of our glory days,



I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,



Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"



Nothing compares,

No worries or cares,

Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?



Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"



Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead.

Bye bye fat girl!

Okay so Paitynn is 2 weeks old now, time to get my booty into gear!

I do not know how much weight I did put on, I was too scared to weigh myself whilst expecting. I'm assuming 10-13 kilos or so. I seem to have lost most of it thankfully but still have a long way to happy.

My pre-pregnancy weight was 76 kilos (and that was after packing on a few over winter) So that's my 1st goal.

Then 70

Then 65

Then we will see how I feel.


I'm never good at the whole diet part but I'm determined. I shall walk, run and sweat. This should be fun -not

Welcome to the world princess Paitynn

so in love....it's amazing how Paitynn just fits right in. She is whats been missing this whole time.


It was love at 1st sight all over again



She is such a wonderful baby...sleeps great, only cries when she is in need of something, really settled and placid. I've been blessed again. B-J totally adores her and is a great big brother. He helps me so much with her, im so proud of him. Bangy is over the moon. He adores her and does so much for her he is so involved.





Here's my birth re-cap -



I was overdue and at my last antenatal appt (After having had 2 previous strech and sweeps) they decided to induce me as i was in prelabour for ages and my cervix was soft just wasnt open plus being high risk. so they booked me in to have the prostin gel applied a few dyas later.



On Thursday 10th I dropped B-J at my mums and bangy dropped me off at the hospital on the way to work at 3pm. I was admitted ..The nurses looked at me like I was crazy going in by myself I just assumed the gel didnt work with B-J and the most it would do this time is open my cervix, so why have bangy miss work when i thought nothing productive would happen till the following morning at 7am when they were going to ARM....lol boy was i wrong.



I had a dose of gel at about 5pm and started having tightenings almost straight away (I'd been having them for weeks before then). The doc checked me at 10pm and I was 2cm Dilated but still not completley open. Had the 2nd doseat around 10:30pm by 11pm my contractions were 1 minute apart - 90 seconds long . I was labouring...aloneup and down the corridors of the maternity ward because they wouldnt move me up to the labour and delivery until I was at least 3cms...which also meant bangy couldn't come in as it was hospital policy that until i was in labour and delivery he couldnt or until visiting hrs opened at 9am. That for me was the hardest part - labouring alone with it already being so intense, i really feel robbed of not being able to be with my husband when I was going through that. I went on like that from 11pm until 6am when the nurse (who was lovely i must say - just had to follow hospital policy) said just call bangy she will let him in.He was there with my mum by 6:20, he was waiting for the call to come!

The doctor checked me and kept offereing me pethadine but i refused..not wanting it after having a bad expeirence with B-J. I was 3cm finally and moved upstairs at 7am...my waters were broken and the contractions immedietly became on top of each other one after the other It was awful..like there was no break inbetween, just high peaks and low peaks. Having pitocin as was the plan was not nessesary because my body was contracting by itself and the gel had set me into natural labour. at 10am I was checked and only 4cm...I was really discouraged i'd gone so long, it was so fierce and i was exhausted. I asked for the epi and the anesthioligist came about 10:45am. After almost 12hrs of intense labour i got the epi. He pieced a blood vessle 1st attempt and had to re-do it. it numbed only my right side!! Exactly the same as when I had it with B-J!! (Turns out that is just a default with me lol) it eased a little but it made me feel like my left side was excruitiating! about 2pm they checked me again and I was 6cm...not even 20minutes later I told bangy I had to push he called the midwife who check and said I was at 9cm. I had the urge to push from then on until 4pm, it was awful i was then using the gas to cope with the added pressure! when checked i was still 9cm but she told me to "push a little" while she was checking and as i pushed i went to 10cm so then it was showtime finally (I could have pushed from like 2:30 ugh!!) SHe was born prosterior *Face to the stars* her spine was against mine. at 4:37pm. Weighing 8lb 6oz 54cms long! SHe looked JUST LIKE B-J!!! I got 1st degree tearing but opted to not have stiches. SHe was placed on my chest and took to the breast straight away with no problems! at some point when i was trying not to push my blood pressure dropped to 40/60 which is dangerously low my heart rate dropped and my temp spiked ( apparently i was so close to needing an emergency c-sec) so i had to have antibiotics via a drip for 24hrs then i went home the next day at 5pm =)Paitynn got the clearence to go home before me lol



She was born 11/03/11 ....i went into labour at 11pm on that day there were 11 babies born at the hospital she was the only girl...bangys bday is 11/11. looks like 11 is her lucky #!



WIth B-J i went into labour at 11pm he was born at 4:07pm

with paitynn i went into labour at 11pm she was born at 4:37pm...weird huh? lol



she however was my worse labour.....or maybe thats because her is so fresh lol





being home is great...unfortunatly i didnt continue bfing. my milk didnt come in until day 7 and she was hungry so we started formula on night 5 and have decided to stay on it. I'm okay with that I have a beautiful healthy baby girl im not going to let it upset me.

playing on the ipod.....

Can't be friends - Trey songs
Right thru me - Nicki Minaj
There goes my baby - Usher
When a woman loves - R kelly
Your love - Nicki Minaj
Check it out - Will.I.Am & Nicki Minaj

Endure to the end....

Life constantly throws us curve balls. It's how we catch them and throw them back that counts yeah?

2 days ago we decided on accepting the job offers and moving back to Sydney....It's bittersweet.

I am really excited to be around my family more. Esp my bff Renea and my sisters...and my mum. Life has been lonely without them. I miss Renea and our craziness when we are together. I miss my sisters...My older sister bossing me around, me bossing my younger sisters around. I miss taking the piss out of my mum - there is truly never a dull moment whilst i'm with her. I miss my Nieces and my nephews and all my inlaws.

But leaving Melbourne is bittersweet... My family here have opened my eyes to so many things. Because of them I laugh louder.... I love deeper...I have become stronger. My cousin Linda has been my rock. She is one of the most amazing persons i'm lucky enough to have in my life. She has become one of my closest friends and I am going to miss her most of all.

When we 1st moved to Melbourne I was very sick...My memory was weak, my mind was scattered. In some sense it has been a journey of self discovery for me. I've always been independent but Melbourne fully detached me from my comfort zone and I learnt to be strong. I focused more on my family life, health and faith and wow...... its been life changing. My marriage is PERFECT! My husband is amazing, my son is the personification of Miracle.

IT's going to be so hard to drive away from here....from whats been home for the last 9 months.

But i'm not leaving empty handed... With me im taking the life lessons that I have learnt.

Being here, I've also had time to reflect on the past. I've had time to heal. I have always been a firm believer in "NO REGRETS" ...still am. But I have acknowledged the many mistakes i've made and boy have I made a few! I can honestly say that I am so content with life now....everyday is a blessing.

I guess this has just turned into a ramble....as alot of my blogs tend to lol.

until next time...xx

Worried about giving B-J a sibling

And I begin to realize that I haven’t taken something from you, I’ve given something to you.I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you – only differently. ♥

Quoted....

If you want to know what a man's like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals