Paramore - Misery Business

I'm in the business of misery, let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass that's tickin' like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out...
When I thought he was mine, she caught him by the mouth

I waited eight long months, she finally set him free
I told him I couldn't lie, he was the only one for me
Two weeks, two weeks and we'd caught on fire
She's got it out for me, but I wear the biggest smile

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feels so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more, I'm sorry that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I passed it up, now look this way!

Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to you,
They want and what they like, it's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him right now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good...

I watched his wildest dreams come true
And not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now...

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feels so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good!

Pentax K100D - I miss you baby!

I miss my camera! Its been over 4 months since I've held it in my hands *sigh* Its still packed up in a box in storage. I keep nagging my husband to go rummage through all the boxes to find it but he said its too buried ....BLAH! Then today he is like.... "bub if i find your camera will you come do a shoot of the boys and I at skirmish on Sunday". Nope, i don't want it now lol

So I had my final specialist appointment today... to be honest I think he is a quack! Ive given this guy sooooo much moola$$ to tell me I'm perfectly fine now...even though my memory is still weak and I'm forgetful. He said to just chill and not stress so much, relax.... dude if i was any more laid back and relaxed id be a fuckin' sleep. I go back to see my GP next week and i know he is gonna send me for a second opinion!! But the good news is My MRI scans are ALL clear, my EEG scan was perfect. What is this mystery problem????? Its been almost 4 months now and even though I'm so much better I'm so over this. - Just wanna be 100% me again!!

We (Linda, Sia, Lisa, Ida, Cherie and I) have been having dance practice getting all our Siva's ready for the reunion in Samoa in December. We have 2 down ...2 left to go! I love it!

B-J and I are preparing for our baptism, not long to go now. I've quit smoking and B-J is memorising his articles of faith its really beautiful to sit and listen to him. Aunt sima has so much patience to teach him - he is so hyper-active!

Quotes that i'm lovin' lately ....

"Sometimes someone says something really small, and it just fits right into this empty place in your heart."

"There is a place you can touch a woman that will drive her crazy. Her heart. ♥ "

Song's on the iPod that i've got on repeat .....

~ Photographs - Rihanna & Will.I.Am

Lyrics - "All ive got, are these photographs, all i got is nothing w/out you, nothing w/out you"

Movies I've watched this week.....

*Bride and prejidce

Book I'm reading.... Private Demon Darklyn #2

I love that i'm his wife

It's been over 4 months now since we tied the knot. It took us 10 years but we finally done it. everyone said its no different to how you are as defacto, its just a piece of paper.... I have to say i thought i agreed until now. I feel complete. I feel proud. It's such an amazing feeling, I just love everything about the fact that I am his wife. He is such an amazing person and I have to say I am the luckiest.

The book of Mormon

So a few months ago I started having lessons with the missionaries. My husband and my son are both mormon and after becoming sick in Janurary I prayed and looked to God for help and forgivness. It has opened so many doors for me, it has awakened my soul. In August my son will turn 8 and will be baptised...I will be so proud and blessed to be baptised with him. I have always considered myself a believer... I always had faith in god. I just didnt practice my faith so much. The book of mormon along with the other 3 books have become so important to me. The gospel is so important and I am so blessed to receive it.

Memories...& Melbourne.

At the beggining of the month I had a seizure - Well we still don't know what exactly happened for sure untill I see the neurologist next month. But something happened which resulted in my short term memory loss, bad headaches, brain wave abnormalities and me laying out cold on the floor at work. SCARY!

You really don't realise how much you take the simple things for granted until something major happens. I wake up each day feeling like i'm not even real...it's like Deja-vu. I have become so forgetful and have trouble concentrating and focusing.

Today I went to pick up my son from school and I walked around looking for his new classroom for 10 minutes before I asked somebody where it was. Its so frustrating, I never would have had a problem like this before.

I go to sleep every night hoping that I'm going to wake up in the morning and be "back to normal".

Getting better...slowly slowly. 1 step forward 2 steps back.


We have been living in Melbourne for 2 weeks now. I love it here. Its so different from sydney!
I love hanging out with the fam. We started training this week! Monga and Ray are our (Me, Linda, Ida, Sia, Cherrie, Lisa & Ken) personal trainers. Its hard work but heaps cool to all hang out together!

I have to wait another month before I can know if i can drive or look for work and I hate it! Its the 1st time in 5 yrs that I have been unemployed....Its not nice.

B-J has started school and adjusted well. I can't believe he is in grade 2....he is such a big guy now. He will be 8 this year.... the year of his baptisim.

I miss my mum and sisters and niece so so so so so so so much! It's hard being so far away from them all.

4 weeks until I marry the most amazing man...

I am so excited. 4 weeks until our beginning of forever.

On repeat @ the moment...

With the wedding coming up I've been listening to a ton of music to make our song selections.... Whats on repeat lately

*Somewhere over the rainbow - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole

*Ave Maria -

*Only Time - Enya

*Butterfly kisses - Bob Carlise

River flows through you - Yiruma

*Bob Marley - Is this love

*Pretty Young Thing - Michael Jackson

*YOu and me - Lighthouse

*The luckiest - Ben folds